Happy Where I am?!

All of my life I’ve had it in my head that I don’t want to live in NY my whole life. That there is a big and exciting world out there and I’d hate to live in 1 spot my whole life. But as time has gone on, the farthest I’ve moved is to Binghamton which is a whole 3 hours away. And I came back as soon as I could. I even missed our area while I was away and visited often. The thought of living somewhere else far outweighed actually doing it.

I pray and pray about where God wants me to be in life and finally today I realized that maybe, just maybe, my prayers are a little silly. If I’m following God’s word and seeking him daily then why would I be in the wrong place or doing the wrong thing? Crazy enough, maybe I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.

When I stopped to think about it, I realized that I’m 100% completely happy with my life. Sure there are things that I want to change or would love to re-do but to find the peace that God is in everything frees me of those thoughts and lets me smile with contentment.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I like my job – whether it’s stressful or not, I love my marriage – whether it’s challenging or not, I love my family – whether they’re crazy or not, I love my body – whether it’s “perfect” or not, I love my style – whether it’s trendy or not, I love my friends – whether I see them or not, I love my church – whether I feel I’m on the “inside” or not, I love my apartment – whether it’s big or not, I love my car – whether it’s clean or not, and I love where I live – whether it’s what I think it should be or not. I’m honestly ready and prepared to stay here for the rest of my life (someone please remind me of this next week when I’m complaining lol); Ready to have kids, buy a house, food shop on Saturdays…just do this thing, in the same neighborhood I’ve lived my whole life. Because I realize that living somewhere else will not bring me any more happiness than Dutchess County would. Sure the people might be friendlier but hey – there are friendly NY people, they’re just hiding from the meanies! And maybe there are more things to do in different locations but knowing me I’ll miss that 1 thing Hopewell has. And to be honest, I won’t be happy if God isn’t in it so with that conclusion, I’m here to stay, mentally as well as physically, …unless God moves me.

Happy Where I am?!

All of my life I’ve had it in my head that I don’t want to live in NY my whole life. That there is a big and exciting world out there and I’d hate to live in 1 spot my whole life. But as time has gone on, the farthest I’ve moved is to Binghamton which is a whole 3 hours away. And I came back as soon as I could. I even missed our area while I was away and visited often. The thought of living somewhere else far outweighed actually doing it.

I pray and pray about where God wants me to be in life and finally today I realized that maybe, just maybe, my prayers are a little silly. If I’m following God’s word and seeking him daily then why would I be in the wrong place or doing the wrong thing? Crazy enough, maybe I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.

When I stopped to think about it, I realized that I’m 100% completely happy with my life. Sure there are things that I want to change or would love to re-do but to find the peace that God is in everything frees me of those thoughts and lets me smile with contentment.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I like my job – whether it’s stressful or not, I love my marriage – whether it’s challenging or not, I love my family – whether they’re crazy or not, I love my body – whether it’s “perfect” or not, I love my style – whether it’s trendy or not, I love my friends – whether I see them or not, I love my church – whether I feel I’m on the “inside” or not, I love my apartment – whether it’s big or not, I love my car – whether it’s clean or not, and I love where I live – whether it’s what I think it should be or not. I’m honestly ready and prepared to stay here for the rest of my life (someone please remind me of this next week when I’m complaining lol); Ready to have kids, buy a house, food shop on Saturdays…just do this thing, in the same neighborhood I’ve lived my whole life. Because I realize that living somewhere else will not bring me any more happiness than Dutchess County would. Sure the people might be friendlier but hey – there are friendly NY people, they’re just hiding from the meanies! And maybe there are more things to do in different locations but knowing me I’ll miss that 1 thing Hopewell has. And to be honest, I won’t be happy if God isn’t in it so with that conclusion, I’m here to stay, mentally as well as physically, …unless God moves me.

A Surprising Saturday

Saturday was interesting. Paul and Angie, our friends from Ohio who recently moved to our area, were supposed to come over. They didn’t. I was supposed to enjoy a full set of the highly anticipated House of Heroes concert. We caught the last 2 songs. I was supposed to not enjoy Relient K live. But I did. It was a strange day. I was supposed to get all gitty and talk to House of Heroes once I saw them hanging out in the merch area ready to talk, but I didn’t. It was a strange day.

It’s always weird realizing that you aren’t the person you used to be. The old me would sulk all day that our friends didn’t come over. The new me sulked for a while because of the pain I knew my other half was feeling. 2 become 1 comes alive. The old me would get pissed that we missed the reason we came to the concert and left early. The current me sucked it up, smiled, and had a good time anyway…and realized that Relient K is amazingly more talented than the radio will ever let them be and their lyrics are much more powerful when sung right in front of you with the emotions the song was probably written with. The old me would be jumping up and down during the concert, getting as close to the stage as possible. The new me enjoyed being behind all of those girls and watching them be the girl I used to be. The old me would flip out at the chance to chat up her favorite band and get as many pictures as possible. The new me realized that my favorite band averages the same age as I am and they’re just some cool guys from Ohio. The new me had nothing to say, especially missing their set.

The old me would be sitting at work frantically trying to finish everything that needs to get done as quick as possible. The new me took some time out of a crazy day to sip her coffee, listen to some great worship music and write a blog.

Conclusion? Finding out who you are now is as easy as looking back at who you were and seeing how much you’ve changed. Enjoying the new you is what will bring happiness into your life and help you to not live in the past.

“It’s funny how you find you enjoy your life when you’re happy to be alive” – Relient K