A Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Morning

Have you ever had one of those days that you woke up and you just didn’t feel right? Physically and emotionally out of balance. That is my morning. Now granted, I’m definitely not a jump out of bed let’s start the day type of morning person, but this was even more miserable than usual. I woke up with no patience…a horrible way to start a Monday for a SAHM. I know why I feel this way. It’s a holiday and my husband has to work. It’s a holiday so my neighbors are home and making a lot of noise before I’ve had coffee and while I’m trying to get my daughter to nap. I poured a cup of coffee and it only filled the mug half way. I didn’t sleep well. My family was sick all weekend. I spent a lot of hours at church this weekend and felt exhausted by the time I got home so the day felt over by 2pm. I ate too many sweets this weekend, some of which I’m convinced had dairy in them (causing a nice bloating and uncomfortable feeling for my intolerant digestive system). I’m on day 7 of a 30 day detox and it hasn’t really “taken effect” yet so I just have a body full of water. I feel jealous of others. I feel irritable. I found 5 more fruit flies this morning (we CAN’T seem to get rid of them and it’s SO frustrating and gross.) I’m somehow annoyed that it’s a nice, warm day outside. My daughter woke up after an hour of napping as opposed to her 2 – 2 1/2 hour snoozefest. I really want to go on and on but I think that’s enough. Did I mention it’s only 11am?

So this morning I did what we all do. I wept a bit and felt sorry for myself. I distracted myself with Facebook. I dragged myself around the house considering all of the things I should probably do. I stared at the baby monitor and told my daughter to go back to sleep (as if she could hear me). I read a magazine and cut out some recipes. I tried giving myself a pep talk. I told myself not to call anyone to complain. And then I looked at my desktop background with my reminders of things I should do BEFORE coupons, facebook, emails, Swagbucks and chatting with hubbie online. It reads “Read Devotional. Read Bible. Mvelopes.” Crap I didn’t do any of those. I guess I should. So I walked into my dining room and turned to Day 26 of the 31 day devotional I’ve been doing for close to 50 days (yea) called “The Finisher’s Destiny.” I then chuckled to myself at how someone who felt the need to read a devotional about being a finisher is taking so long to finish it. I then wonder how many people didn’t finish it and got a bit prideful that it may take me months but I WILL finish it. But I digress.

Day 26: RENEWING YOUR STRENGTH

“And let us not lose heart and grow weary and fait in acting nobly and doing right, for in due time and at the appointed season we shall reap, if we do not loosen and relax our courage and faint. So then, as occasion and opportunity open up to us, let us do good [morally] to all people [not only being useful or profitable to them, but also doing what is for their spiritual good and advantage]. Be mindful to be a blessing, especially to those of the household of faith [those who belong to God's family with you, the believers].” – Galatians 6:9-10 AMP

“That He (God) would grant you, according to the rices of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man.” – Ephesians 3:16

“Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD!” – Psalm 27:14

“…He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength.” – Isaiah 40

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” – Philippeans 4:13

Once again, God gave me what I needed. So nothing about my day has changed. It may be “one of those days.” I may have a case of the Mondays. But the truth is, it’s only my heart and my relationship with God that will determine what type of day I truly have. The facts are the facts and the events are the events but the heart…now that’s something I can control and God is going to give me strength to do that.

I’m not there yet…but I’m determined to get there before lunch.