The Other Type of Faith

Through my spiritual journey I’m discovering that there are all different types of faith. Some I’ve gotten pretty good at and others I’m discovering are a weakness. Right now in my life there seems to be 2 different types of faith. The first type of faith is what I call blind faith. It’s that take a jump, not sure what I’m doing type of faith. It’s when you pray that God works a miracle. It’s when you quit a job based on “knowing” there is a better one out there without actually HAVING the job. It’s deciding to have a baby and trust that God will work out the details. It’s saying yes to a task that you aren’t confident you can do. For me, it’s become the easy kind of faith. I know there is a God and I know that he speaks to me daily…so I KNOW that if he put something on my heart, he’ll come through with the answers I need.

But it seems that there is another type of faith active in my life that I’m NOT so confident in. It’s the faith that says “okay, I know that I can take this into my own hands, but maybe that’s not the best idea.” It’s having an answer in your head but then wondering if it’s the BEST answer. It’s the kind of faith that determines how bumpy your path is as opposed to if it’s the right path. It’s putting aside what you think is best and asking God what IS best. And I’m finding that this is a really hard thing to do. I’m underdeveloped in this area but I know God is starting to say “come on Jess, you need to work on this”…and so I am.

So it seems that I have no problem moving across the country with no money but I do have a problem choosing when to say no to something when I want to say yes. Does anyone else have faith issues? I’d love to hear!