His will, my likes or a little of both?

Lately I’m pretty confused by the things inside of me. I have a lot of half talents. I’m kind of good at a lot of things. I’m really good at not much. I like a lot of things but I’m not passionate about most of them for long. Some of the things I’m passionate about I’m not doing…and I’m doing some things I’m not passionate about. See the confusion!!

I’m a firm believer that God puts talents, thoughts, words and gifts inside all of us for certain reasons. I’m a firm believer that there is a time and season for all of these things. I’m also a firm believer that we, as stubborn, media and people influenced humans, have the ability to confuse and mess these things up. This in turn, makes me a firm believer that sometimes I’m not in the will of God without knowing it.

I know God has given me many dreams and many talents, but lately I’m having a hard time figuring out which are for now, which are for the future, and which aren’t really his will at all. My biggest problem is that I’m spending more time trying to “figure God out” than get close to him and let him reveal these things to me. The bible tells me that my talents will make room for me. It also says that God’s perfect will will become apparent when I put him first in my life. Not his will, but him. His will will be revealed when I put God first…by reading, worshipping, praying, fasting, communing and being a part of his church body. I know this. So why do I mess it up all of the time?

Just Sunday God revealed an answer to my past confusion and now on Tuesday I’m battling with a different confusion already. Shouldn’t I see the pattern that whenever I forget about the confusion and just get in his presence (without a motive besides being with him) that answers appear and the clouds are lifted?

On that note, killing time at work until Andrew Ironside’s worship service tonight. Now someone please tell me to relax lol.

And on a personal note, to all reading, please keep my husband Chris in prayer. He’s having belly problems and I need some people agreeing with us that God will heal him once and for all!