Happy Where I am?!

All of my life I’ve had it in my head that I don’t want to live in NY my whole life. That there is a big and exciting world out there and I’d hate to live in 1 spot my whole life. But as time has gone on, the farthest I’ve moved is to Binghamton which is a whole 3 hours away. And I came back as soon as I could. I even missed our area while I was away and visited often. The thought of living somewhere else far outweighed actually doing it.

I pray and pray about where God wants me to be in life and finally today I realized that maybe, just maybe, my prayers are a little silly. If I’m following God’s word and seeking him daily then why would I be in the wrong place or doing the wrong thing? Crazy enough, maybe I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.

When I stopped to think about it, I realized that I’m 100% completely happy with my life. Sure there are things that I want to change or would love to re-do but to find the peace that God is in everything frees me of those thoughts and lets me smile with contentment.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I like my job – whether it’s stressful or not, I love my marriage – whether it’s challenging or not, I love my family – whether they’re crazy or not, I love my body – whether it’s “perfect” or not, I love my style – whether it’s trendy or not, I love my friends – whether I see them or not, I love my church – whether I feel I’m on the “inside” or not, I love my apartment – whether it’s big or not, I love my car – whether it’s clean or not, and I love where I live – whether it’s what I think it should be or not. I’m honestly ready and prepared to stay here for the rest of my life (someone please remind me of this next week when I’m complaining lol); Ready to have kids, buy a house, food shop on Saturdays…just do this thing, in the same neighborhood I’ve lived my whole life. Because I realize that living somewhere else will not bring me any more happiness than Dutchess County would. Sure the people might be friendlier but hey – there are friendly NY people, they’re just hiding from the meanies! And maybe there are more things to do in different locations but knowing me I’ll miss that 1 thing Hopewell has. And to be honest, I won’t be happy if God isn’t in it so with that conclusion, I’m here to stay, mentally as well as physically, …unless God moves me.