Back to the Beginning

I think from time to time it’s important to go back to the beginning of things. It’s good not only to remember where you started, but go back to the reasons and emotions behind that place. Today I’ve been reminded of the most basic reasons why I accepted Jesus into my life — things I haven’t thought of in a while to be honest. Sure I’ve been living the Christian life and staying close to God and trying to dive into a deeper relationship and understanding of who He is in my life, but the thing is, I’ve complicated things…just as most Christians look back and realize at some point in their life. I lost that pure joy and contentment in knowing that Jesus is living inside of me. So busy wondering why I can’t “feel” God at times when all I have to do is close my eyes and think back. Think back to the days before I knew him, and then instantly the tears form - realizing the joy and peace I have because of Him. He hasn’t gone anywhere – I have. My focus changed. The simple little things just don’t weigh as important and visible as they used to. Things about myself have changed because of Him, but I’m now taking them for granted. Blessings comes all of the time because of Him, but half the time I don’t appreciate them. Joy and peace come, but I find something to complain about and ruin it. I guess the main point is, God is what you let Him be. He’s there at all times – you just have to see how far open the door to your heart and life is.